late. again.

i feel like i have been torn into pieces.
my stomach is rolling up and down the spine of my back.

i. am. the. worst. friend.

so i checked up on Kasey's blog...see how she is doing...

and there was her post. sweet.love.caring.memorable.

of course.

Kasey remembers Misti's birthday..
she is smart.

But misti is the one birthday i always remember?
and i forget...how strange.
im losing it.

at least i'm still dreaming about her.
ha. ha. not as weird as it sounds.

like 2 nights ago. i had a dream we were in the weight room...
and i was trying to do push ups...
and she kept pushing me down with her foot,
so i would do the 'elephant walk' else where..
and she would follow, just to tap me on the back with her foot.
it was hilarious..i literally woke up laughing.
it was weird because it was so funny.
misti was laughing too.
(it suddenly doesn't sound that funny)

anyway... i always tell Joe about me dreams of misti.
the are so frequent and always
about playing basketball or volleyball
or working out or something sporty.

and most of the time i pass them on to misti.
a little weird. but shes like family.
I still can't believe i missed her birthday!

One time in high school, our sophomore year i think?
i picked her up early in the morning for her birthday,
made her breakfast,
dressed her all up in pink.
made her wear pink underpanties over her pants.
painted pink eyeshadow on her eyes. and then...
made her carry around a huge pink pig bouncy ball..

what a friend i was.

yikes i am a horrible friend.
anyway

it was awesome, because she was a sport.
she went along with it...even though she didn't want to.
misti is always caring like that.
full of love and sport.

I love misti.
she has been one of my very best friends.
she always kept me honest. (even if she didn't know it)
she always made me feel wanted. and needed.
she was never judge mental.. when she could have been SOOO judge mental to me (EA)
she always smiles and is up for any competition.
she is one of the funniest people i know. (very easy to be around)

yep misti. you are so easy to be with.
you were/are such a good friend to me.

i love you to the core of my soul.
thanks for always being you.
easy.
fun.
challenged.
compassionate.

i hope you had a good birthday.
i'll call you later:)

sorry...i feel horrible i missed it.

love you mist.