Can you shake me any harder?

We met with the fetal cardiologist on Monday and got to see what our little mans heart was doing and not doing. Basically the left side of his heart does not work and the right side is working double time. We talked and learned about the Norwood, Glenn, and Fontan surgeries. The Norwood is the first surgery he'll have ranging from 3-7 days old. The glenn will happen anywhere between 3-6 months and the fontan will occur between the age of 2-4 years. It breaks my heart knowing our baby will have to undergo three open heart surgeries before he is 4 years old, but we know it's his best chance of survival. We also learned we won't be able to bring him home until after the recovery of the second surgery because of the altitude change in the mountains. Which brings Joe and I to some more difficult decisions pertaining to Joes second year of nursing, splitting our family, babysitters, moving, styaing, jobs, and many many more. We have no idea what we are going to do. I just feel like someone has grabed me by the sholders and has shaken the wits out of me. It's so reasurring to have Joe by my side. Its a little weird I can feel peace while being shaken so hard. But thats the great blessing of the Holy Ghost. We will see what the future holds, I know whatever it has in store for us we will be ok and we will and already have grown from this experience.

On a lighter note, You know your emotions are running high when your listening to Usher's- Oh My Gosh and you start crying...Then laughing because your crying when the USH man is singing "girl you got a booty like wow oh wow". Need I say more? Emotional wreck...OVER HERE.

I also just realized the place where you leave comments on my blog says who haaass... anyone know what a who ha is? Or is that just Joes dirty word? hehe

Also my sweet Ryah Jane turned 3! My mother-in-law is awesome! She came over made Ryah her favorite pancake and bacon/sausage breakfast, then she threw her an amazing afternoon party with all her family and friends. I was reclining watching her do everything since I was on bed rest. She has been so helpful and is so so amazing! I don't know what I would do without her right now. Ryah wanted a hello kitty bike for her birthday (pretty random) but thats what she got! So here are some pictures of the party...these are for you Kate, James, Krista, Shelley, Nate and Randy.

Aubree overdosing on sugar

My sweet Mckay and Nolan

some of the fam

Gavin and Ian thrilled with shooting their lizard

Joe being a good daddy to all those kids

Eden also overdosing on sugar

And the sweet birthday girl! We love you so much Ryah, you have been so fun and you are such a good girl! You have the best personality and you are always keeping me laughing. I'm sorry I cut your bangs really bad,

You are still super cute! I hope you had a good birthday!